“Cheating is NOT a mistake.
If you’re truly in love with someone, you will not be able to kiss someone else without tasting your loved ones tears stain your lips. You will not be able to take your clothes off for someone else without feeling like a field ripped bare to its soil. Cheating is a choice, its a choice you made because you obviously didn’t give a single fuck about your relationship.”—(via hefuckin)
More than one person has said we’re a weird couple but noone can really elaborate why. We both had our own lives, other people, whole other stories happening whilst quietly we built something of our own, without anyone realising. When someone is in your bed 6/7 nights a week for a full year it seems strange to say he crept up on me, but he did. It just never even crossed my mind as a possibility. We have always been all chemistry and awful timing.
So maybe thats why. We spent so long being with each other in the dark and it being so natural that way has led us to feel a little awkward in exposed sunlight. It feels too personal, like im wearing my heart on my sleeve. Our relationship was something that came out fully formed, rather than everyone getting involved as it developed.
I suppose it looks odd considering our histories. Im not a rebound, or someone who will manipulate him, cheat on him and then behave like that emotional abuse is irrelevant. Hes not an egotistical maniac, he’s not abusive, he doesnt guilt me into fixing him at my own expense. Breaking the mold a little.
My relationship in public basically is an inside joke that only we know and noone else gets. Im okay with it.